Forever

Please, please say I am almost done with this edit.

It's the longest thing ever!

but almost. Please almost.

Productive lunch

I need somewhere to type today, to set the session in a good way.
I have 90 minutes today to make things happen.

...Roll on...

frustrations

Frustrated today.

Feeling like people ask for help and then I get a lecture on what the answer should have been.
...Okay, don't ask then. I'm not the one looking for advice on the matter.
As with all things, all that matters is that I put this out of my head for the writing session.


I'm at the line edit. I must complete that very soon!! And then there will be rainbows and leprechauns for everyone!

Slow progress but finally some...

Very excited to finally see the end of that scene. It's the most poorly written thing ever but at least it's over!!

And I was thinking, most people will read it faster than it was written so they'll forgive the scene especially after I line edit it to almost pretty.

Anyway on to the final scenes. Please let the thing flow finally.

Editing hell

It's been a hard week. The editing phase has gone extremely slow. It should never have taken so long. I drag my way through each scene.

I'm at 9 scenes left to go.

Let me see how far I can get with that.

Hope touched

I'm filled with hope that something will come of this. Please let the story go well. Please let it sell.
I feel like I really have something special here.

Please. If wishes work. If wishes and dreams work.

humming

It looks like.

I need to rewrite my MC. Make her interesting, funny, endearing.
Hmmm.

that is tall order and I'm all frozen.

I come here to pout and to set my mind straight.

It's okay if it's not quite right; I just need to make a dent with it.

Also, what is it with people sometimes? They can be so harsh or snobby, uptight... what is the word for it?

Just everyone take a chill pill please. There's no need to be a snot about it.

next steps

So here's the question: can I actually make the next part of the book the same length as what's already written?

Hmmm... I suppose if the next section took 10k. Perhaps the last section could be another 10k

Is that dragging things out?

I think I'll need to take some more time in this section so I'm not trying to take so long later.

Fixing old stuff

Ok I took some time to work on the old project but now I'm back.
I have about 90 mins to get in some solid words and move the story forward.

Unfortunately, I think I have to fix the old stuff first.
I must face it and just get it over with.

Ok- can't do it. Must push forward.
I suppose that's progress. Just get to the end and deal with the fallout later.

almost 19K.

Looking like this suckers going to be short though. [sad face]

just keep writing

good news - apparently it wasn't that bad so I can keep going.

But finally i've gotten feedback on the other one so i'm busy bee trying to edit and then I need to get a blurb written for amazon and figure out the compiling stuff.
But hopefully I'm getting closer.

I'm just so relieved that the new one is salvageable.

Now, just to get this thing loaded to the zon so i can move on and hopefully so it will sell, sell sell

Hard times

Oh my gosh. I am so miserable. Yes, the story is that bad. It's really that bad. Beyond horrible no good very bad bad. very bad bad.

Just keep writing, just keep writing, just keep writing.

It's okay if it sucks. It's actually probably fine.

Again today, I'd like to get 5K in. I'd like to buff up this middle section and take myself to the last section of the book. Again, it's going to be too short.

Good start for today

I feel a need for a fresh start. Again, the story might need integral changes, but the skeleton is correct so I will proceed onward.
none of it makes sense but perhaps things will smooth out.

2188 words already today. I am over 18K.
I have updated my due date to July 19th.

I will re-adjusted if things don't continue going smoother but I'd love to get this story completed more quickly than the original plan.

Honestly I can't believe my word count is so high already. And the story isn't that bad, right??

Let's see how it goes

Today, I need to have similar results. I feel really uncertain about yesterday's writing so I'm very unsure I should be building on it.

Perhaps that's the task at hand: re-read and see how bad it is.

Update: pretty damn bad.

Okay, moving on. I think it will be fixable in revision. Must get to the end of this story.

Back to the original requirements: It's okay if this story is complete crap. Just write, fast, like the wind. Get to the end. I can add detail and personality later.

It's all good. Write fast. Many words.

***

Hmm, things are not going well. I am stuck in that terrible place: it's all horrible. I am the worst writer ever. How can I be so bad at this.

It's because all these books are crap. I need to be writing something I actually like. I hate these types of stories. But if it sells, how can I resist it. Must write more, that's what.

And they sell. These types of stories sell. So why am I being stupid about this?
Really, stop taking any of this seriously. Right now.

***

Edit: so really, it's just that I am such a perfectionist. No book is perfect, so as long as you are delivering what the readers want, they have learned to see past the imperfections to get what they need.
The less not-perfect you have, the easier it is on them. But the reader can deal with more imperfections than we might think.

So no reason to get so worried.

Crazy is as crazy does

I have this crazy dream to get about 14K words today (actually that's counting about 800 I got yesterday).

Let's see how that goes.

That would bring me to about 25K on the story. Currently, I'm at 10433.
Bare minimum is about 1500 today.

Okay, type fast.

I DO NOT CARE HOW THE WORDS ARE. JUST GET THE SCENE OUT OF MY HEAD AND WRITTEN DOWN SO I CAN FIX THEM ALREADY AND GET IT PUBLISHED!

Update: 6:27pm: 15370 words. That's 4937 words. What's another 10K between friends?
6:57pm: 15838 words. Yup, starting to drag. I am seriously burned out.

So for now at 7:03 pm: 15,838. That means:  5405 words today!

Today is all about getting caught up! DONE

I missed my lunch session, but I have time tonight!

In my first session tonight, I brought my word count to 9041. I am up to date.

This second session tonight is all about getting the words due today.
And if I happen to get ahead (!!), all the better.

So here goes. Again, it can suck hard. That's not what this is about.
This is just about getting the place-holder scene onto the screen.

Okay on to Session Two...


***


I have broken 10K on the project. The story has barely started. This is completely wonderful news. Hopefully it's not because I need to cut most of it.

I am 312 words into my word count due for tomorrow.
I think I will call it good now. I'm so pleased with what I've written so far.
I know where I'm headed still for the rest of the book. And I'm comfortable with the contents of the scenes that I will write tomorrow.

Please let this good news continue... Please let these sell and get me a way out of my misery.



[2269 words today]

And again... more words please

I have about 60 - 90 mins available this evening. This is big.
I need consistent 2-3 sessions a day of words.
That's professional level at that point, even with the EDJ.

Here goes...

Current word count: 6653.  Let me see how much I can add to that.

EDIT:
Okay, as usual I seem to want to stress about how stupid the story is going to be/already is, so why bother?
The thing is: stupid stories actually make money. There is no reason to worry at all.
Stupid stories sell like hot cakes.

So here's to stupid. I'm with stupid.

I have no expectations that this will be a good story, just that it will be a complete story, that I will write it fast and get to the end. Edit and polish. And sell.

I need about 2400 words to get back on track.
This will not happen.
But perhaps I can get 1500 more stupid words and get close to on track. :)

Let it be stupid. Let it be the dumbest thing ever.
Just move the story forward and that will be enough.


Word count: 8164 (+1511) .

not too shabby for the second writing session of the day!

that's 2711 today. :D

More words, please... it's worth the headache and the heartache

No words yesterday! (In my defense, it was not a good day) no excuse.
I must continue forward, push on to the end of this thing. Then take a step back and see what I have.
In order to make that happen, I must show up each day, launch my Freedom session and write.

This afternoon, I have just under two hours.   ... Gonna make this happen.
It happened.

About 1200 crappy words.

Must get more tonight!!

Getting words

I'm making exciting progress today. 1500 words so far today.
I'm now in the midst of getting yesterday's goal word count.

Today is the 4th of July though. I very much doubt I will get to today's word count.
But I've very hopeful that I can begin to make that up this week.

I think though that I'll keep my goal word count right around 1300-1500. Anything more and I'm more likely to not bother.

I'm still in the very beginning of the story. It's not going well. My characters aren't thinking, feeling or acting as individuals. But scene progress is made.

I want to focus on that for a change. Just get the rough draft out. Learn the character voice better as I go, rewrite the early scenes to match once I'm done.

'Here, Here' to writing fast and perfecting later...


Oops, but lest I forget. Starting over at this moment.
I don't care how bad it goes, just keep putting words and moving the plot forward.

Let me see how long I can make this story.

...

about 2900 words today!

Quiet on the set

It's hard to settle today, so many nerves. I will take this one step at a time though and I can make it through.
I'm a couple days behind but if I keep this up I should be able to get back on schedule.
I'm not going to worry about being a faster writer, instead I'll focus on being an every day writer.

This scene is not coming to me but that's crazy. I know what happens.
The issue is that I'm not putting all the crap out of my head.

Today and today and today. Just focus on the one scene.

Moving forward

So here's the question- can I survive? Can I put it out of my head??
Can I move on and be a pro about this?

The only way to get past the nightmare is to put in the time.
This means even writing when it's been a very bad, no good, horrible day. This means even if it's lunch time and the no good, very bad day is in process. Write. Just write.

Well, I've messed that up a couple of times. It's not over though.

Today is the day I put it all behind me... I'm a professional writer today with my two hours to get in my 2K words/day. :)

And on that note, time to take the story forward. I already know what happens. Let's make it so...