pushing on

I need to clear my head. Life is rough. I really want to get everything to a good place again.
This means pushing through to the end, even if I don't feel like it.

There are a few things I'd rather be doing right now, which is why I'm getting the cravings to do something else.

Let me shut all that down now. Focus on getting onto the new things.

Assignments for today

Don't let it ruin your life. PLEASE. It's not that big of a deal. Let it go and move on.

Assignments:

• Finalize all existing scenes to rough draft.
• Fill in missing scenes to get them to the next part.
• Move on and let the beginning go. GET TO THE END!!

Also, I'm all done helping and hanging out. It didn't work out. Time to let it go, completely.

Never invited...

hurt feelings; sad face

Ohh, my feelings are hurt, but unfortunately, I let it show. It's so sad that I do that to myself again and again. I wish I could go back in time. Life is so hard. I'm miserable.

they just whispered their invitation to each other, excluding me specifically.

I shall cry later.

Need to get my writing done.

The writing is for me and no one else (which is a laugh since I don't like the story/genre at all. But I write the story so that I can get out of this place in my life. Where I can move to making connections that are positive for me.

I don't want to be stuck in this negative loop anymore. I want to be free and happy, independent, and able to say f*&@ it to them all.

Time to win.

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Actually, I'll put a wonderful spin on this. It's rare to be able to write stories, to have any hope of breaking free of the rat race. I need to concentrate on that. This comes easy to me and it's worth lots of money, potentially so much money once I get a bunch published.

Time to step back from all the expectations and get this story done!!!

Shoop, shoop.