Ohh, my feelings are hurt, but unfortunately, I let it show. It's so sad that I do that to myself again and again. I wish I could go back in time. Life is so hard. I'm miserable.
they just whispered their invitation to each other, excluding me specifically.
I shall cry later.
Need to get my writing done.
The writing is for me and no one else (which is a laugh since I don't like the story/genre at all. But I write the story so that I can get out of this place in my life. Where I can move to making connections that are positive for me.
I don't want to be stuck in this negative loop anymore. I want to be free and happy, independent, and able to say f*&@ it to them all.
Time to win.
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Actually, I'll put a wonderful spin on this. It's rare to be able to write stories, to have any hope of breaking free of the rat race. I need to concentrate on that. This comes easy to me and it's worth lots of money, potentially so much money once I get a bunch published.
Time to step back from all the expectations and get this story done!!!
Shoop, shoop.
