I've still got dvorak but that's it.
I used to be up around 100/110 wpm; now I'm crawling around 20. It's frustrating to start over like this (and slow down my thinking in order to communicate) and it makes me wonder if it's worth it or just another distraction from the writing I should be doing. Then again I never finish anything so maybe I should suck it up. It won't be like this forever. I'll get this.
The writing. I'm bored with the story to be truthful. It doesn't seem to have enough left to do. But when I take a step back and remember what Muse did with the stuff from bk1. This book has just as much going for it. So what's going on?
The obvious answer is that I'm taking this way too seriously. The pressure is way too high. And I fear failure way too much. What's the worst that can happen if I finish the book and it's terrible?
I know it sounds terrible but seriously the dreck that gets published - at worst mine will be just another story added to that pile. And if I could just learn how to let the expectations go, get in to the story and write. Let it all go and enjoy the process, just write for me. And me doesn't care if the magic makes sense right now, she just wants to find out what happens next.
If I could just keep in mind that everything can be fixed in revision and that I'm writing this because I like the world and the story and the characters and it's fun!
