It's hard to show up again. There is so much I'd rather be doing right now (I would rather be watching Once upon a time on hulu) but I'm here. I'm here for two hours.
I'm going to pull myself through this next scene and just try to keep from pulling out all my hair. I absolutely do not care how it sounds (the quality). I just need to make it to the other side so that I can move on to the next scene. I will figure out what to do with it and whether it's worth keeping later.
Time to start, time to move on. Perfect has no place here.
I need 464 words by 6pm. I know I can do this.
UPDATE (4:24): I don't want to do this. don't want to start this scene. don't want to write an incorrect sentence. don't want to move toward the abyss/black hole.
Just get it over with.
UPDATE 2 (5:56): 890 words for the scene. The scene found itself. It was different than I expected but ended up being fun. It's still sort of a transition to what I thought the scene would be about. But again, I don't care how long this book is so long as the story moves forward. And it's definitely, definitely moving in the right direction!!
Now after all that, my expected word count according to Write Track is now 457 each day. Not as much impact as I hoped but I suppose it makes sense. (I really want to get it down to about 300 or so but that's not going to be as easy as I hoped). :D I love this program: http://nano.davidsgale.com (Write Track). It does all the math for me.
So it's 6:00 now. And I should really move on to other things. But I hate that I'm still not sure what it's about. I just know that this other group is bringing my two MCs into their plans. And I know how that definitely helps bring about some of the future plans so I'm further ahead than I thought I was. I think I even know the 3 things I need to accompplish. [Ok, I updated the next scene with notes for tomorrow. Note to self: I need to just wing it tomorrow. It will come together, just give it space and trust. There's no hurry; there's just the next scene and then the next.]
