Updated count: 63K or so

now I'm at 63K (or slightly more). It's taken me a long time to get here. I've been doing a lot of Facebook and reading other people's blogs. Instead of struggling with story.

But anyway it's neat (and boring) to look back at the old posts. I'm struggling a lot in the middle of the story. Every sentence is a struggle [every single one]. It's partly hating that it's an ugly sentence and partly that I don't know if it's the right direction. Or that the direction is boring. Still need to find a place where I can age my characters about 10 years. It might be the end of this book. I think that's the problem. I need to outline and figure out where this book is going for the next 30-40K so that it will accomplish something and give a pause to the reader and leave open all the stuff that's yet to come. Then I will know I am writing toward something and stop worrying about how young my characters are and when am I going to be able to age them. Will a reader hate that they missed the intervening years? [me asking self]. I think it will be a good thing. And can I manage to end the book as stand alone with all those things that were hinted at? I have to.

This might be just what I needed. Thank you blog. As usual you gave me the space to figure out exactly what was blocking me. So today is outline time.